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Wednesday, August 7, 2013

37 weeks with baby #2

**Will add in picture later due to our computer being down.**

Laying in bed feeling anxious and panicky. Had the most irritable day of my life. I've never noticed irritability but I was on the verge of loosing it several times today. I've only ever felt that way a couple of times in my entire life.
10 plus weeks of contractions ad modified bedrest are probably wearing me down. Lost at least a chunk of mucus plug today. Greg is out of town til 2moro nite. Pretty steady contractions and I'm just so done with this that I'm fine if she wants to come tonight. I've earned the right to be selfish. Going on 3 weeks of spd pain. So tired. Peeing constantly and her head is so low that I usually only pee a little. Diarrhea instead of solids. I'm so irritable I almost just threw my phone cuz I typed the wrong letter twice in a row. Beyond rational irritability. I am just so done. She was in perfect position with butt on the left of my bellybutton earlier in the week, switched to butt on right for a few days and just flipped back to left an hour ago so something to be thankful for. At my appt 4 full days ago I was a "solid" 2cm dilated, 50% effaced, her head was completely engaged, cervix was "very soft" and her head is very low and engaged!! I was encouraged but realistic because I was only 37 weeks. Since then I've gone back and forth on the hopeful scale. Id love her to arrive any second now. I'm sure I might miss being pregnant someday but I can't see it from here. Id regret not getting to snap a few prego family photos but even then id happily give that up right now to get outta this.  I adore my son and am trying to focus on/enjoy this time with him but I was an awful mother today and couldn't control it. I had to walk away from him several times today to not loose it.
Dear God,
Ur plans rock but if this taking much longer doesn't have a super important divine purpose, please help me out!!
Love,
Val

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